Such

Such cranial dimensions of unbridled carnage, my mind the victim of an incurable disease,
manic depression is putting lightly - This is my cross to bare.
I put my friends through hell - and believe they can trust me, I care for thier opinions.
I am ravaged by fear.

I am the madness,
I am the lunacy,
I am the troubled,
I am too much for my bones.

They ask me to end the madness, but I am afraid and feel I must finish the work.

Be still you who are the ghost in me,
few know the true genius that suffers indignity.

The mania gone now my mind dives into hell.
Released from the heavens - God, task-master that he is.

No feet have I to stand upon the earth,

I am exausted,
I am to crash.

Pain waits for me, another battle which I will win.

Th Dead Sea 2011